this isn't nothing fancy, or nothing that i would like as decorated from my usual sites, but it doesnt have 2 b, this is an information one and its important, i wouldnt want to usually discuss this but 1 have been having issues lately and i want to spread awareness, I have a disorder called Trichotillomania,and when i'm writing thz it only has ~8% of the entire world population having it, pretty rare.. but i have it, diagnosed. i've struggled since i was in 2nd grade and then only pulled lashes, but it can range from hair, eyebrows, skin hair, lashes, pubes, you name it. I'm insecure about it but i shouldn't, i feel nasty about it and i feel like it ruins me as a person.
I want to tell my story, and not be ignored. I grew up in a stressful house, lots of fights, cursing, smoking, alchohol. but never direct abuse. when i was around 8 years old i went into 2nd grade i believe and all my friends were great, it was the household that was the problem mainly, going up to 10 years old i belive like 5th grade or something started eyebrows and regular hair and started getting insecure and started to wear hoodies, around 11 years old my mom put me in therapy. 11, think of how confused i was being forced to talk to a random person. p.s that didnt help at all, just made me better at hiding it. PRO TIP!!!!! if you want real help talk to your family if you can or people who you feel safe around. currently at my age now, a few words i can say is that to stop is hard, ive had a year of quiting and then i missed the urge, relapsed.
To describe it in simpler words, it's an addiction. I hate to do it but it relieves so much. But in the end it destroys you more. That is described for any other unhealthy addiction, some people may scream at you to just STOP, but its really hard to. You can't just bite off of cold turkey and expect to be fine. of course its gonna sting, and yes its gonna hurt, but with the right diagnosis and medication, it will get better. Just dont expect it sooner or later. PEACE XOXO